I’ve felt strangely disconnected with this holiday season, perhaps because it’s the first time I’m not on winter break since… well, since I can remember!  It was a lot easier to be excited about not going to school and having my birthday off, but I’ve had things pretty easy lately.  Other than my internship three days a week, I’m pretty much doing my own thing as I job hunt, so there’s no huge distinction between this week and the last.  For some reason having my parents back and not having my internship for these two weeks doesn’t have a strong effect on this impression.

I feel oddly out of sync with the world and watching those shows full of holiday cheer is like watching some foreign movie.  I don’t really connect with what is going on and I kind of watch with a bit of confusion.  Perhaps some snow would help me get in that mood.  I saw some pictures Katana took while she goes on a cruise through parts of Europe and that is what I consider to be festive!  I guess it also sucks that my neighbors really cut down on their Christmas lights in the past two years, so the most prominent reminder of this time of year is no longer there.  I’d like to go somewhere to enjoy a bit of a wintery feel.