I try to do things for me but I want to do them for you.
So your goals become mine and I forget who I am anymore.
Posts Tagged ‘poems’
Dusk
laelene Posted in general blog，Tags: nature, poems, poetry
20
July
2017
As the sun waves its last goodbye
And disappears over the hills
The brilliant colors fade to pastels
Dusk
The temperature cools
Fireflies come out
And there’s a certain beauty
A little bit of magic in the air
A hectic day gives way to a quiet evening
It’s the tranquility I seek
I feel so serene, so calm
As peace washes over my heart
In that moment, it’s all I need
Dusk.
cracked
laelene Posted in general blog，Tags: abstract, life, pictures, poems
15
April
2015
I fell through the cracks
I lay all alone
And I quietly hoped they’d help me
As others stumbled, they were helped up
“Soon it will be my turn,” I thought
Soon it will be my turn.
But the seconds dragged to minutes
And nothing
So I timidly hollered.
They peered down at me
I waved
They turned their noses – quiet, you!
Back to the ones above board!
Help them, help them instead
I fell through the cracks and it broke me
Epilogue
Now I choose to sit in the shadows
A tainted spirit and soul.
One day I might explode
Break open the boards above
Let everyone fall down here too
Or if I’m feeling generous
I’ll swim off to the sea
There’s a wide world out there
As soon as I’m strong enough to swim
As soon as the tide comes in
By and by
laelene Posted in general blog，Tags: abstract, life, poems
02
September
2014
By and by
A month went by
By and by
A year.
Then,
By and by
A decade had gone
And she found herself alone,
Stuck in a job she did not enjoy
Spending her nights with TV dinners —
Numb to the years marching on.
On and on and on
They marched.
On and on and on.
Til she could no longer grasp the joy of her youth;
The triumphs, the failures.
It was just her in an empty apartment,
Wishing she hadn’t let it all go.
How did her life just float on by?
By and by, it did.
You. & I.
laelene Posted in general blog，Tags: abstract, expression, poems, society
11
January
2014
You.
You who hold me down.
You who hold me back.
You who keep me caged.
You.
How do you capture a whisper?
How do you keep still a moment?
All I ever wanted to be was
Whatever I wanted to be.
But…
You.
You try to hold me down.
You try to hold me back.
You try to keep me caged.
I live within your rules
And it is breaking me apart
But I dare not escape
I dare not defy you
For you rule the world
You rule my world.
I.
I am drowning.
I am flailing.
I am suffocating.
I dream of a whisper.
I yearn for a moment.
All you let me be was
Whatever you wanted me to be.
But…
I.
I will not drown.
I will not flail.
I will not suffocate.
Any longer
You imposed your rules
And they nearly broke me
But I fight to escape
I struggle to defy you
I…
I struggle to rule my world.
Inspirational
laelene Posted in general blog，Tags: aadp, asian american, bone marrow, cancer, donors, janet liang, pictures, poems
16
December
2013
when i think of you
i think of that smile
your resilient spirit shining through
when i think of you
i wish we had met in person
so i could hug you and hear you laugh
when i think of you
i can’t help but shed a tear
as i remember the day i found out
found out the cancer had taken you
i always believed you’d beat it
you were so strong, so brave
you had the kindest heart
you made such an impact on so many lives
inspiring them, encouraging them
and bringing awareness to the need for asian donors
who else deserved to live more than you?
oh janet, how i wish it didn’t
didn’t have to end
end like that, end so soon
how i wish you were still here
sharing your beautiful soul
A tribute to you, Janet, over a year after your passing. Thinking about you.
Please put yourself into the donor registry, no matter who you are. You could save a life. Learn more at Asian American Donor Program (not just for Asians) and get registered to be a donor.
To be a bird
laelene Posted in general blog，Tags: animals, experiences, hawks, pictures, poems, thoughts
09
December
2013
Ah, to be a bird
Where air is my element
And I flit about nay a care in the world
Light as a feather, nimble as a mouse
Free to go up, down, all around
I could put it all behind me
Escape to another world
If I please, if I please…
And if I tire, I’d find a perch
Gaze down at the world so far away
Noticing every detail with my razor-sharp vision
Letting myself be free
Free to be me
Oh how glorious it would be.
I didn’t set out to write prose that resembles a poem, but I guess that’s how my thoughts sort of gathered themselves. It’s funny that I began writing this last night and then this afternoon, a hawk glided along to a stop near me, right on a rock on the ground. It’s not often you see these birds of prey so low to the ground, calmly sitting. It watched as I walked around to get a picture of it and let me take one. Before I could get a better position and zoom in more, it was off again, sailing ever so gracefully into the sky. I’m so inspired by these great birds – in fact, I’ll be writing about them again for today’s 365great.
Can you spot the hawk hiding behind the branches near the top of the rocks?
I’ve long admired these creatures, not only because they are so powerful and elegant all in one, but because they get to fly. I wish my body could allow me to go airborne whenever I want. It’s so beautiful up in the air and everything is so crisp and clear. They represent empowerment and freedom to me, which are things that I value deeply. Beyond that, I’d love to spread my wings and take myself away from this place sometimes. Wouldn’t it be nice to retreat from the world for awhile and find your peace? Get lost in your own thoughts and not worry about the rest of the world.
Oh, to be a bird…
