The past few days I’ve suddenly grown an itch to cut my hair again. It’s getting to a nice length where cutting it won’t make it too short (and thus force me to shower in the morning so it won’t look too poofy during the day). Yet, it’s still not quite as long as I’d like (enough for it to be considered longer than average). Then again, I think my hair just doesn’t grow very long and probably will never reach much further than the bottom of my shoulder blades. Besides, my impatience with it once it gets to that magical length that it refuses to grow beyond prevents me from ever allowing it to really get any longer. After all, when you can’t easily comb out your hair with your fingers to give a quick fix, it starts to become much more of a hassle. Nonetheless, I really like the idea of growing my hair out longer. Pity it likely will never quite work out the way I’d like.
I think another issue I run into is that my body doesn’t allocate enough nutrients to my hair for it to get past my shoulder blades and not start to get really dry and brittle at the ends. There is nothing quite so distasteful as finding a slew of split ends hidden in there, and getting a dry, scratchy feeling from the tips of your hair. And my hair looks nothing like those shampoo commercials where ladies with long, flowing locks sport their shiny and extremely slippery-looking hair.
The other main obstacle is also related to its feeling – the feeling of hair on the back of my neck, which I hate more than most feelings. There’s something about that heaviness weighing there that I really don’t like. I’d tie my hair back more often, but I like having it down and keeping it up gives me headaches. Plus, when it’s down, it acts as an insulator for my neck, ears, and shoulders. Being one who gets cold easily, that little extra help really makes a difference. I also just like how it looks that way.
I wish I could have longer hair without the hassle of dealing with it. And I wish there was a way to keep it off my neck without tying it up. So instead, I guess I’ll have to settle for a medium-long length that is enough to weigh itself down so a quick brush will fix most problems, but short enough to not feel too heavy on my neck. While I’m at it, I’m thinking of getting streaks again (highlights? lowlights? I have no idea what the difference is – just something lights!). I haven’t had extra color in my hair for awhile now, so it’d a fun change.
I naturally do not have double eyelids, merely single ones, but as a child, if I rubbed my eyes a lot, sometimes I could get a temporary crease. When I went back to China after high school, I took some glamor shots at a studio, where they taped little clear crescents onto my eyelids to simulate the look. It was fascinating to me that they would do that and I’ve always wondered if it really does look better. It certainly gives my eyes a little more dimension and now eyeliner applied along the top layer of lashes wouldn’t get buried in the depths of my eye when I opened them. It makes for more “Western” eyes, which, perhaps, is the point? It feels weird though, to have this crease in my eye, with skin folding up around it and sometimes I wonder if it’s one of those things like a displaced joint that needs a little boost to get back into place. There’s certainly a kind of pressure there and opening my eyes larger makes that feeling even more pronounced.
Sometime while I was in Singapore (and I didn’t notice at all), I somehow developed a double eyelid. That’s right, just one. So now my eyes are uneven (much like everything else in my body) and I wonder if one eye looks bigger because of this incongruency. It’s kind of cool and it has been pretty permanent, but I wonder how long this will last. Will the other eye change too? Will this one go back? Or am I stuck with one single eyelid and one double eyelid? Since I have no idea how I got the first one to begin with, I have no idea how to make my other eyelid like that, or undo this one. I guess it’s fun though, to observe the differences side by side and feel the differences when I open my eyes.
