Posts Tagged ‘behavior’

Election day

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I’ve hated the negative back and forth going on between Meg Whitman and Jerry Brown, so I chose to exercise my vote by not voting for either of them.  This time around I chose to stay away from the polls because there was nothing I strongly cared for or believed in.  I’ve voted in both presidential elections since I could vote, missed the mid term election in 2006 since I was studying abroad, and now again decided not to participate in this mid term election.  I also don’t feel good about voting if I didn’t take the time to review the materials for the opposing sides to make a decision that I am comfortable with.

But, I think in a way I was hoping that Meg Whitman or Carly Fiorina would win, just to get that business perspective into our government.  We could use a bit more fresh blood with new approaches.  But I guess I generally do tend to side with Democratic views a bit more, so I guess the outcomes can still be good.  We’ll just have to see how things pan out from here…

The power of many

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When it’s one, it looks a little insane, no?

bird dust bath from Mary Qin on Vimeo.

Ah, but when it’s many, it’s a party!

birds dust-bathing from Mary Qin on Vimeo.

I never knew that birds took dust baths. I thought that was just something chinchillas did.

Jury dread

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Whenever I watch a show chronicling some sort of horrific crime, I always think about how I’d hate to be one of those jurors.  Deciding someone’s fate and trying to figure out the real facts of a case can be overwhelming and I have a propensity to be swayed by both sides of the argument.  Just when I think I believe the prosecution, I hear some good points from the defense that makes me believe maybe the defendant is innocent.

I’ve always been able to see both sides of an argument and though I do choose sides, it’s not so much a logical decision as it is an emotional one.  I am deeply affected by my personal opinion of someone and that may color my judgement of their actions.  Try as I might, if I don’t like someone, it’s just too easy to see them doing bad things (the opposite is true as well).  Suddenly it’s not just about the empiric evidence and personality becomes a factor – a big no-no.

I don’t know if I’d ever be comfortable sentencing someone to a guilty verdict if there was any sort of defense that could be built.  It’s just too easy to see how maybe, just maybe, things really did look different than what they were.  But for a clear-cut case with undeniable visual/auditory evidence and a guilty plea, I don’t know if I’d ever be fully convinced that someone actually did commit the crime they’re accused of.  My dread of performing my civic duty is just because I feel I would be a terrible juror, leading to a mistrial or hung jury each time.  Thankfully I’ve only gotten one summons and never got called in that week.  I’m not looking forward to finding out just how easily swayed and indecisive I can be when someone’s future hangs in the balance.

Law enforcement obsession

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I have this intense fascination with law enforcement.  Whenever I see a police car, I always have to stare just a little.  There’s something about the blue lights that only they can flash that really catches my attention.  I’m always curious to see what they’re up to, whether pulling someone over or helping someone out.  (And usually it’s hard to tell which is which.)  I’ve even heard some phantom sirens when I thought there might be a cop, ambulance, or firetruck nearby.  I really like to see them and imagine what they’re rushing off to.  Are they going to save someone’s life?

Maybe I should have been a policewoman or paramedic.  I like the idea of rushing around to help people.  Unfortunately, I don’t like the rest of what those positions entail – catching people for speeding or going through medical training.  Instead, I prefer to be the onlooker, captivated by those flashing lights and blaring sirens.  One of these days I’d love to ride in each vehicle just to see what it’s like inside.

It’s not easy being “green”

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I like to do what I can to be environmentally-friendly and lessen my impact on the planet.  Unfortunately, I have found that much of this behavior is considered unusual and people often seem to judge me because of it.  Not for being environmental, but for other reasons.  Take plastic bags, for example.  When I go to a grocery store, I have to very loudly and assertively ask to not have my food bagged (except in Whole Foods).  Otherwise, a bagger will come over and immediately start dumping my food into more bags than is necessary, sometimes even double bagging.  Each one used makes me cringe.  Where will that end up?  Will some poor bird try to eat it one day?  It’s hard to say.

When I make that request, I often get looks and people ask me if I’m sure.  Of course I’m sure!  Gosh, why do you think you’re selling reusable cloth bags but to reduce use of these stupid plastic ones?  It’s slightly annoying that they are so incredulous that I may actually want to inconvenience myself a bit with carrying the items separately than to stuff it into a bag.  I guess I should start bringing my bag just so they won’t wonder why I chose to carry those five items in my arms.  Not that that is such a difficult task anyway, but it seems people don’t understand why you wouldn’t even bag one item nowadays.  It’s a mentality that needs to be broken before our disposable habits trash the world even worse than it already has.

Then there is my habit of bringing my own set of utensils to use.  The first thing people think is that I do so because of hygiene issues.  But no, my handy dandy To-Go Ware is purely for a conservation purpose.  The less disposable utensils I use, the better, since fewer will be thrown out later.  Having a bamboo set solves all my problems.  I have my very own fork, knife, spoon, and chopsticks for any food I might encounter.  I also intend on getting my own reusable straws to bring around.  Until then, I refuse to use straws.  They are, after all, completely useless except for sucking up boba.  Sometimes I get looks then, but really, can your glass be much dirtier than the plate you eat on?  Please.  Don’t think it’s unhygienic to drink directly from a cup when you eat directly off a plate.

And finally, another consistent thing I do is not use paper towels.  What’s wrong with air drying?  I also bring around a little People Towel in my purse most of the time, which is great for wiping your hands.  Although having wet/damp hands after each wash is a bit of an inconvenience, people seem to find it a bit gross.  Perhaps because you never know if that’s water or something else… but that isn’t an issue that people should be worried about, unless you’re dealing with a young child.  Yet nonetheless, I am on the receiving end of looks all the time, for these little habits I have that aren’t the norm.  Alas, it ain’t easy living a green life!

Commuting

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I don’t think commuting and I will get along too well.  I’ve got about 3-4 hours to drive each day to get to and from work now that I’m back at home and I don’t know how long I can keep it up.  The past two days I’ve already felt like an oldie because both nights I had to retire “early” and cut the festivities short.  Granted, I was still getting to bed around 1, but those still in college and summer mode were still going strong at that time.  Meanwhile, I’ve been exhausted at night once it gets close to midnight.  At least my body is forcing me to sleep so that I’m not too tired for work.

Now that I’ll be spending even more time driving, I’m only going to be more tired.  I’m going to have to go to bed before midnight (gasp!) just to get enough rest to make it through the day.  Even then I get tired driving and will need to test out a variety of techniques I’ve been pondering.  Today I tried the first one – getting a Jamba Juice for my drive.  It worked pretty well in the beginning as I had something to sip on that also kept me quite cold, but once it was gone, I still had a good 45 minutes to go.  And that was getting it already 45 minutes into the drive!  Perhaps I’ll have to find one that’s an hour into the drive and stop by there.

Other options are to drive to a certain point, then find a nice spot to park the car for a quick snooze.  That also allows the traffic to clear up a bit and the sun to set more so it’s not glaring in my eyes or heating up my car and making me tired.  I can also see if I can find a tea that actually keeps me awake.  Or maybe I can do what I do when I study – drink so much water that I’m either drinking water or going to the bathroom the entire time.  Of course, that would mean I’d probably have to make at least one pit stop along the way and find a bathroom to use.  I’ve also contemplated resting before even leaving, so we’ll see if that makes it any better.

Nape

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One of my greatest pet peeves is having dry hair on the back of my neck.  I dislike dry, static-y hair as it, but when that’s sticking to the nape of my neck, I can’t stand it.  There’s something about that area that is very sensitive and I wish it was easier to reach.  I like to give it a nice cleaning in the shower and try to keep my hair off it as much as possible.  Unfortunately, I don’t like to tie my hair up, so I end up pushing my hair over my shoulders to keep it off my back.  I also love to run my fingers through my hair so that it will get my hair off my neck (and my ears, which is another area I like to keep clear).

When I first moved to California, I hated the feeling of my hair because it got so dried out from the arid climate.  I began to put my hair up and take showers in the morning to keep my hair as wet as possible for as long as possible into each day.  After two years, my body finally adjusted and my hair was no longer as dry.  I also began school at UCLA, which has a more humid climate than the Santa Clarita Valley.  I got used to having my hair down again, but I still like the feeling of getting the hair off the back of my neck.  It’s like lifting all these things weighing down on me and getting a little more freedom, a little more breathing room.

I’ve dreamt of shaving my head, but I haven’t dared do it since I don’t have a feminine enough face to pull off that kind of look.  I’d love to know how it feels to have nothing lying on your neck or shoulders though.  Perhaps someday I can get a wig and give it a try.  It’d be an interesting experience, I’m sure.  For now I’ll just have to keep pulling my hair back.

The dirty underwear analogy

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I have a bad habit of wearing my contacts all the time.  I rarely take them out at night and when it’s time to use a fresh pair, I just take out the old ones and put in the new ones.  My poor eyes hardly ever get a break from having a foreign object in them.  I also am not very good at keeping track of how long I’ve used a pair, so they end up getting way more mileage than they ever were meant to.  It’s a testament to the hardiness of a pair of contacts, this way that I abuse them.  You’d think I would have had some sort of problem by now, but my eyes are perfectly healthy (except for the nearsightedness and astigmatism, of course).

Last time I went to the optometrist, I remember her saying that leaving my contacts in like that is like wearing a dirty pair of underwear for a couple of days.  It was one of those things that created a terrible image and got me to start taking out my contacts at night for awhile.  But alas, as time goes by, old habits creep back and I am doing the same old thing again.  Tonight I took my contacts out for the first time in a looong time and it feels good.  After all, my eyes need to breathe and having a plastic cover prevents that from happening as effectively as it could.  It’s nice to feel air on my pupils again and not have a strange piece of plastic between my eyeball and eyelid.  Though I’ve long since gotten used to the feel of contacts, my eyes still appreciate when they’re bare again.

I really need to try to stop “wearing dirty underwear” on my eyes, lest it damage my eyes later on.

Writing obsession

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Have I ever mentioned my office supply fetish?  Well, I call it that, but it’s really more of a deep desire to own all the cool stuff I see in the office/school supply section.  Usually it’s pens, but sometimes erasers and notebooks and even colored staples catch my attention.  So because of this obsession (mainly with writing instruments), I love to write.   I don’t love to write for the words.  I do enjoy to write/type for expression, but to physically write I am driven by a completely different need: I love to write for the feeling of ink on paper.

I write for the feeling of how smoothly the ink glides onto the paper to make a mark.  I write with colored pens to brighten up my day.  I write with scented pens to amuse me with their smells.  I write with thin .05mm pens because they are the perfect thinness.  I write with .07 or .09mm to be bolder and make an impact.  I write with metallic and/or glittery pens to shine.  I write with milky pens because that was the fad.  I write with Sharpies to mark my territory!  I scribble and color in and draw random lines, just to fill the paper with ink.

I know it’s wasteful, but I get a certain pleasure from using up all the ink in a pen, so sometimes I will waste it just to make it happen faster.  I also love to completely scratch out things I’ve written that are outdated because they’re an action item or reminder that I’ve taken care of.  That adds another level of satisfaction to the satisfaction of ticking something off my list.  And because of all this, I can’t help it – I’m a doodler.  After all, that’s a great way to use pens when you don’t really have anything to write.

So there.  I admit it.  I am absolutely obsessed with writing.  Just not for the reasons most people might be…

Workaholic?

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I enjoy working.  The month started off slowly for me, with my workload dwindling, and after a week and a half, I had just about taken care of all my emails from the past month, followed up on as many things as I could, and caught up on some random tasks.  I had my reports done, emails answered, and time left over to get distracted.  It felt weird.  I didn’t know what to do with myself.  I’ve never considered myself a workaholic, but when I’m working, I like having plenty to do, always more than can be finished that day.  I don’t like finishing everything and twiddling my thumbs.  So by the end of two weeks, I mentioned to a coworker that I had some free time on my hands and could help if he had something for me to do.

I can really get into the zone when I’m hard at work, zoning out people passing by and other distractions.  At times, it’s hard to tear myself away for lunch, but once I do manage to (if I do…), I can let go and enjoy my meal.  And when things are slowing towards the end of the day, I can tie off loose ends and save some of the work for the next morning.  I don’t generally need to stay late and have rarely stayed beyond half an hour more than usual.  I can leave work at work, but gosh, when I’m there, I do like to actually work.  Maybe because being productive makes my time feel worthwhile.  Maybe because it makes the time fly by.  Or maybe just because I really do enjoy the work I do!  It’s a great feeling and I’m really glad I came across a job that is such a steal.  I don’t mind getting buried work during the day.

It’s wonderful to have a job like this, that I can work hard at and feel good about, with no complaints.  I really can’t think of anything I dislike about the job.  I remember anticipating full-time work and the horrors of getting up every day at the same time, not getting a summer break or the various other vacation times, and a whole slew of other things that people hate about the daily grind.  But I’ve got a great deal – I don’t need to get up earlier than 8:30, I don’t have to shove down lunch in half an hour (unless I want to), and I have fun coworkers and supervisors.  It’s no wonder I like to go in to work (though I admit I still have trouble waking up in the morning) and be a good, productive employee.

So yay for the new opportunities that are filling up my schedule once again.  A slow day or even a slow week may be nice once in awhile, but I’d rather be busy getting things done.  I don’t think I’m a workaholic in the strictest sense, but in many ways – healthy ways – I can be.

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